hEY HEY HEY GUESS WHAT DAY IT IS
and I got proof y a y
On October 21th, 2009, I registered the account Nicktoongrl
to (you guessed it) become involved in the Nickelodeon fandom and further my three-year relationship with drawing. And I dunno, I definitely don't think I wouldn't be around today if it wasn't for signing up. It may seem silly, seeing as all I did was join a social media site...but it's way more than that to me.
The last few months of 2010 were tough. Despite being around for almost a year, I started to doubt myself. I got bullied again, my friends started to leave, and most of all: I left art for a good while, forced to deactivate my account. Being without all of those people mentioned above was dreadful and I didn't see myself the same way again. I didn't realize what an impact being online made on me. All of those people...those experiences...from a screen?
So, I picked myself right up and made this account. Granted, it was a new start, but getting back around the bend...it was like I never left. I ignored all of the others whispering in my ear but still listening to the one voice in my head. Of course my social anxiety started to develop, taking a form of it's own. I'm still in that battle with myself. But never did I think that this was going to be all right from the moment I started to roll the ball again. There would be slumps, yes, but then there would be peaks so high it looks like it would be impossible to get down from. After all, I cared about was whether or not it made me happy.
And it did. During all of this time, my simple hobby has grown into a passion: something I haven't realized until the last few months or so. I just wanted to get myself out there; to try something new. And it exceeded my expectations! Here I am, half a decade later, with college applications and praise from studios and companies I greatly admire! Never on my worst nights did I ever dream I would be here. And I improve everyday. Not just in my work, but in myself. The 12-year-old me was right all along.
But most of all, the people I've met here are the driving force. They're truly incredible. Not only did I meet these people that have the same interests as mine, I made the best of friendships. Not just someone to critique my work, but somebody that I've stuck with longer than any of my real life relationships. Honestly, they're more than just "internet friends". These are real, genuine people that deserve more than just a shout-out.Drawies
And to the one, who doesn't have an account here, but certainly has been involved behind the scenes as of late: my little sister, Iman. She's probably lurking around to check up on me while I write this, actually. I do see you, and I do love you. Nothing can come close to a blood sister.
As for everything else, I really had a piece that I wanted to submit but it's obviously gonna be a little bit late. If anything I'll submit it by the end of the year, if it kills me. I've been busy with the previously mentioned college applications among other things, like a contest submission and, duh, school. I finished a course for the semester but man oh man has getting up at 6 every morning been draining me. Otherwise, I'm still roaming around Instagram if anyone else cares.
I'm posting WIPs before submitting them anywhere else, like I promised, but it's kind of slow going. I'll get there soon enough.
I recently visited the theatres for the first time in months and I indulged myself in two movies: The Book of Life & The BoxTrolls. I'm getting into some new bands like Youngblood Hawke & Walk The Moon and I'm trying to get Photoshop to stop asking me for serials. Any fixes anyone knows about?
But yeah. I'm thankful of the past few years and I'm excited to see what the next few has in store for me. Whatever awaits, I'll take it in.